Just found the information I had to log back onto this site. I don't know who really reads this if anyone but thought it might be a bit therapeutic to go over things. Lets see highlights:
Graduated from College! (August 2012)
This I felt like twas quite the achievement as I really pushed myself to finish and get that BA. It was nice to do but honestly the achievement felt semi hollow as when I walked out onto the stage to get the paperwork, I felt very alone strangely. No family, no friends were able to make it. I always thought I would, hopefully have at least one person there to share this with but sadly I did not.
Honestly thats pretty much been the high point of the last few years. I have been between a few jobs, laid off, resigned at another one where I honestly couldnt afford to keep working it. The past year or so has been really rough. Havent had any money and been going from couch to couch trying to get on my feet but never really making it. Hoping to maybe go get some therapy tomorrow as I am tired of just asking myself if I can just die. Its funny because it feels like the world and my few friends have all moved on and here I am just stuck in place. I used to think I was just idling the engine but now I feel like even a car is a luxury that I cannot afford. I have been trying to write another book lately to see if I can maybe make a few bucks off of that on the Amazon Marketplace but honestly I dont feel like I have much hope there either.
I dont know what the future is going to hold but I am going to keep on smiling and try fighting for things to improve. I hope to come back and look at this and be able to tell my former self that things were getting better and that change was right around the corner. I hope....
