Summer School and Moving

Well I have moved out of Jerry's place finally. Not sure how I feel about it. Used to have a ton of fun with him but things are all different now. The few months that I lived there we hung out I think all of two or three times. Was very lame and way lonely to live there. Though it was nice finally getting out of the fraternity house still. Now I have moved in with my friend Gibbs who was the first person that I lived with back here in Logan. Quite the adventure back then though I was mormon and all of that at the time.

On another note though Summer school is always interesting. This is my third year of taking classes during the summer but I am quickly losing what drive I had for the classes in the first place. Finally did get my summer loan though I need to pay off bills and stay on the healthy side of things. Its hard to keep your focus when you are trying to get out and keep hitting the wall of life as I call it. Hoping to find some people to hang out with that arent all about partying but want to just enjoy life and have some fun. I find that here in Logan if you arent mormon anymore, your social circle is VERY limited and I have yet to find anyone that gets me or that has a drive like I do. Anyway hoping that life gets better but in the meantime the weather has finally cleared up enough so that I can go running today. Cant wait to start this hobby up and get in better shape than I was last year. Hoorah! Or something.....

Late Night Ramblings

Ah a quick note of today. Wasnt too bad and got a little done in both the book and the screenplay though need to take more time and finish both. Otherwise just too restless these days. Need to figure it out

Faith

Been thinking lately a lot about Religion and how it affects people here at Utah State. Sadly its an issue that I have had to deal with head on since I left my religion many year ago, in its own way, a constant reminder of what I had to give up to be go the path that I did take. Either with lying with every breath I would take at church, saying things I truly didnt feel or reject it. These are my thoughts after a few years on the subject.

Faith

I do not believe in the stories of old but I believe in the power of humanity

I do not pray to a deity I pray to myself that I can make a change in the world I see

I do not have faith that there is a divine plan but I have faith that I can make my life meaningful

I do not let religion define me but religiously try to do more good than wrong

Well I had more but its not wanting to come out tonight. Its tough, knowing that I am a good person with worthy goals, but being shunned by the community because of my different beliefs. I have been wild and crazy the past few years and I dont want to go back to that. Those times were fun, they were good but it was a dark time. But all I can do is go on and be better. Thats my goal. As long as I keep that in mind, the goals can be reached, the wars won and reach that summit of goals that I am setting for myself. With that I wish you all adeiu.

Crazy Days

Recently I have set up a diet plan to try and lose almost 40 pounds. Its a big goal as I have let myself go for way too long now. Mostly I want to get back into the shape I was back when I was in the Infantry as I am sick of not being proud when I look at myself in the mirror. Working out a few times a day and eating a lot less should help me in this a bunch as well. So far from about 210 I am around 202 right now and hopefully will have the body I want by the end of summer. Will let you know

Ah well right now its coming right down to the end of the semester and right to the end of the book. Still working on a title as nothing has really hit me yet as being really fitting and so until I do its a random working title. But if I can stick with my goal of 1k words and at least 5 pages being edited a day, then I figure within the next month or so I should have the first draft completed.

Otherwise just trying to stick with my classes and try to get the best grades I can. Otherwise right now I am still waiting on my actors to show up for my directing class and I have been here for two hours. This class may be bombed from the feel of it.

Time For Change

Well I finished most of the first rough draft of the book I am writing. After I figure out my taxes today I go back to writing, but eh passed the 50k barrier, though I feel like I should have done this a lot sooner. We will see what happens with the story but I am loving how its been going and all of the great ideas that have came to me as I have been writing it. Hope people love it, but its still going to take a few weeks work to get it where I want it to be

Ah the joys of finishing another semester of school

So far I have decided to make this a webpage of random saying and the crazyness that is sometimes my life, fueled by a total disregard of mormon culture and obscene amounts of alcohol at times. Otherwise we will see how well I can get into the swing of things with this.